I honestly don't like where my life is headed right now. Throughout my life I've wanted to be many things, it started off with wanting to be a fighter pilot. When I was about ten years old the only thing I wanted to do was fly an F16. But alas, my eyesight is too horrible to even dream of that.. I need 20/20 vision to even pull it off. Then I discovered music, I was watching Back to the Future... and this song came on; "the Power of Love" - Huey Lewis and the News. From that moment everything changed. I fell in love with music. Now my dream of dreams is to play on a stage in front of a screaming audience; to entertain. Since I heard those opening chords I've wanted to be in a band and tour the world. But I can't focus on that entirely, I know that very few people out of all that try ever reach that destination.
I've asked myself time and time again - what's my backup plan? What am I going to do if my dream never works out? So for three years I planned ot be a producer, to work in a recording studio. I figured if I couldn't be on stage that I could have the next best thing. Alas, that didn't work out either - I'm not cut out for that kind of life. I couldn't stand to be in the background, I've decided I have to be onstage or nowhere. So here I am, a Comm Arts - Theater major... But I'm even questioning that. Am I really going to make it? Am I settling for less again? Maybe that's all I can do for now. Despite this yearning deep in my heart of hearts to perform, to have that power to make people laugh or scream with a wave of my hand or the sound of my voice. This is where I'm headed, how I'll do it I don't know.. but I'll do it nonetheless. I'll illustrate for you the image in my head... Die Toten Hosen - Heir Kommt Alex
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
in honor of a truly amazing actor..
so in the last day, I've been at a serious loss as to what to write about.. but then I thought of a man - nay, not just a man, a great man. Jimmy Stewart. Now I know he's been widely recognized and is seen on national television nearly every Christmas in It's a Wonderful Life but I've decided to wax "eloquent" about him anyway.
I think my first exposure to Mr. Stewart was through It's a Wonderful Life. I'd never seen the entire movie until my senior year of high school. I'd seen bits of the beginning, and the end (from about the point where he tried to jump of the bridge) but never the entire thing. When I finally sat down and watched the entire thing I was absolutely astounded. The story spoke to me like nothing else had.
The second movie I had the pleasure of seeing was Harvey, a movie about a man with an "Imaginary" friend.. I really need to see that one again
The third and, the movie I've seen the most recently is Mr. Smith Goes to Washington... I'll let the clip do the talking... either that or look it up on IMDB.
I don't know exactly why I'm drawn to Jimmy Stewart's movies as much as I am. Perhaps it's because he seems to play the "nice guy" the guy who, despite what life throws at him, sticks to his guns and comes out on top. At least that's what I've seen from these three movies.
Anyway, that's my thoughts on that subject.. I'll leave you with Jim Carrey's impression of that great man.
I think my first exposure to Mr. Stewart was through It's a Wonderful Life. I'd never seen the entire movie until my senior year of high school. I'd seen bits of the beginning, and the end (from about the point where he tried to jump of the bridge) but never the entire thing. When I finally sat down and watched the entire thing I was absolutely astounded. The story spoke to me like nothing else had.
The second movie I had the pleasure of seeing was Harvey, a movie about a man with an "Imaginary" friend.. I really need to see that one again
The third and, the movie I've seen the most recently is Mr. Smith Goes to Washington... I'll let the clip do the talking... either that or look it up on IMDB.
I don't know exactly why I'm drawn to Jimmy Stewart's movies as much as I am. Perhaps it's because he seems to play the "nice guy" the guy who, despite what life throws at him, sticks to his guns and comes out on top. At least that's what I've seen from these three movies.
Anyway, that's my thoughts on that subject.. I'll leave you with Jim Carrey's impression of that great man.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sigmund Freud.. seriously? seriously now?
We covered a bit of him in Psych this afternoon and I have come to the conclusion that he was a sex-crazed nutjob. The way Twinky (yes, that's my prof's nickname, it's on the syllabus) explained a bit of his theory was that we have three parts to our personality. The Id, the Superego, and the Ego. Our Id is like a two year old child making demands all the time, but instead of candy all it wants is sex. All the time. Our Superego is like our moral compass, its personality is kind of like an older adult. It tells our Id that it can't have what it wants. So what happens is kind of like this: *high pitched whiney voice* "I want sex! I want sex!" *lower voice* "you can't have any so if you know what's good for you you'll be quiet". Aaaand that's pretty much it in layman's terms. According to Freud that's what's going on in your subconscious. The third part of your personality is your Ego.. which is basically the conscious part of you. Your poor Ego has do deal with Id and Superego duking it out constantly. One of Twink's illustrations particularly caught my attention "Say you're hungry, you really want a chicken sandwich. Basic instinct, right? Well according to Freud you don't want a chicken sandwich at all.. you just want to get laid" Well.. that's my personal interpretation of what she said at least. There's a good chance you'll be hearing a lot more about him (and psych class for that matter) from me in the future
We covered a bit of him in Psych this afternoon and I have come to the conclusion that he was a sex-crazed nutjob. The way Twinky (yes, that's my prof's nickname, it's on the syllabus) explained a bit of his theory was that we have three parts to our personality. The Id, the Superego, and the Ego. Our Id is like a two year old child making demands all the time, but instead of candy all it wants is sex. All the time. Our Superego is like our moral compass, its personality is kind of like an older adult. It tells our Id that it can't have what it wants. So what happens is kind of like this: *high pitched whiney voice* "I want sex! I want sex!" *lower voice* "you can't have any so if you know what's good for you you'll be quiet". Aaaand that's pretty much it in layman's terms. According to Freud that's what's going on in your subconscious. The third part of your personality is your Ego.. which is basically the conscious part of you. Your poor Ego has do deal with Id and Superego duking it out constantly. One of Twink's illustrations particularly caught my attention "Say you're hungry, you really want a chicken sandwich. Basic instinct, right? Well according to Freud you don't want a chicken sandwich at all.. you just want to get laid" Well.. that's my personal interpretation of what she said at least. There's a good chance you'll be hearing a lot more about him (and psych class for that matter) from me in the future
Sunday, January 25, 2009
first blog.. ever
Fun fact.. I've never had a real blog before. I've posted a couple on my myspace before, but since I deleted my page... it doesn't exist anymore. So this will be my first (and possibly only) blog post.
I was trying to think of a theme for my blog, perhaps I'd make it one of those political blogs.. but since I'm kind of dumb when it comes to politics that was scratched. Then I wanted to do a music blog, or a video blog, but both of those didn't quite work. So I've decided to do a random stuff/music/video/rant/whatever type thing here. Basically, I'm going to put whatever the hell I want on here and hope for the best.
So anyway, I've been on kind of a music kick of late (what else) since my trip to the Rock and Roll hall of fame. The highlight of the trip was definitely getting within six inches of the bass from the cover of "London Calling" by the Clash
I think for a lot of people it wouldn't be all that exciting, but somehow I kind of had a geek out. Probably because I've absolutely loved this album cover for years, it was just cool to see a bit of history right in front of me. That album cover (at least for me) holds kind of a mythical status. On a side note, the second coolest thing I saw (and it was a very close second) was the four track tape recorder that the Beatles recorded "Sgt. Pepper's" on... excuse me while I get nostalgic.. ok I'm done. Anyway, I'm rambling, so until next time... The Clash - London Calling
I was trying to think of a theme for my blog, perhaps I'd make it one of those political blogs.. but since I'm kind of dumb when it comes to politics that was scratched. Then I wanted to do a music blog, or a video blog, but both of those didn't quite work. So I've decided to do a random stuff/music/video/rant/whatever type thing here. Basically, I'm going to put whatever the hell I want on here and hope for the best.
So anyway, I've been on kind of a music kick of late (what else) since my trip to the Rock and Roll hall of fame. The highlight of the trip was definitely getting within six inches of the bass from the cover of "London Calling" by the Clash
I think for a lot of people it wouldn't be all that exciting, but somehow I kind of had a geek out. Probably because I've absolutely loved this album cover for years, it was just cool to see a bit of history right in front of me. That album cover (at least for me) holds kind of a mythical status. On a side note, the second coolest thing I saw (and it was a very close second) was the four track tape recorder that the Beatles recorded "Sgt. Pepper's" on... excuse me while I get nostalgic.. ok I'm done. Anyway, I'm rambling, so until next time... The Clash - London Calling
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