I honestly don't like where my life is headed right now. Throughout my life I've wanted to be many things, it started off with wanting to be a fighter pilot. When I was about ten years old the only thing I wanted to do was fly an F16. But alas, my eyesight is too horrible to even dream of that.. I need 20/20 vision to even pull it off. Then I discovered music, I was watching Back to the Future... and this song came on; "the Power of Love" - Huey Lewis and the News. From that moment everything changed. I fell in love with music. Now my dream of dreams is to play on a stage in front of a screaming audience; to entertain. Since I heard those opening chords I've wanted to be in a band and tour the world. But I can't focus on that entirely, I know that very few people out of all that try ever reach that destination.
I've asked myself time and time again - what's my backup plan? What am I going to do if my dream never works out? So for three years I planned ot be a producer, to work in a recording studio. I figured if I couldn't be on stage that I could have the next best thing. Alas, that didn't work out either - I'm not cut out for that kind of life. I couldn't stand to be in the background, I've decided I have to be onstage or nowhere. So here I am, a Comm Arts - Theater major... But I'm even questioning that. Am I really going to make it? Am I settling for less again? Maybe that's all I can do for now. Despite this yearning deep in my heart of hearts to perform, to have that power to make people laugh or scream with a wave of my hand or the sound of my voice. This is where I'm headed, how I'll do it I don't know.. but I'll do it nonetheless. I'll illustrate for you the image in my head... Die Toten Hosen - Heir Kommt Alex
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This post shows great retrospection and foresight...the fact that you're questioning your future means you care enough to do so. I'm seeing a theme in your career choices thus far of wanting to make a difference. Just keep wading through all the confusion and dead end streets and eventually you will find what you can truly flourish in. You have greatness in you, kid. No matter what, don't forget that.
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