hmm...

I’ve had a lot of time to think in the past couple weeks, or rather, the past few days. Over the years I’ve had a lot of almost relationships, and since coming home I’ve had a bit of time to think about them. The question I ask myself so much is “what’s wrong with me that I can’t seem to keep one person in my life?”. It’s become less and less a rhetorical question and more and more a question regarding my own feeling of self-worth. For someone as socially oriented and monogamous as I am, to repeatedly come out alone is horribly demoralizing. After a while, it starts to eat away at you – not a good thing. But recently I’ve come to the realization that almost all of these (and I mean almost) have been frivolous and only for the sake of just having a somebody. So what do I do about it?
I’ve decided for the time being I should be happy with my singleness. Maybe I should be guarding it rather than trying to get rid of it. If most of these relationships had come to fruition, I’I’ve come to the realization that maybe it’s a good thing to be too odd for most women. I’m glad I’m not the guy that every girl wants. It keeps the chances of heartbreak low, and I like it that way. I’ve vowed to only enter into a relationship if I can see a possible future, only enter into a relationship if it’s really something special. Maybe I’ll miss out on a lot if I’m choosy… but I’ll save myself a lot of trouble. So for all of you out there, consider me off limits for the time being.

so anyway, here's a... song

Everlong (acoustic) - Foo Fighters